Milne ki Tamanna

Na jaane fir kab milenge ab hum
Yun hi bheed me kabhi haath takrayenge
Ya baarish me train ki khidki se dekhunga tumhe
Tum kabhi aangan me hogi
Aur meri kati patang takraayegi tumse
Ya koi chor tumhara purse lekar bhagega
Mai uske 2-4 ghuse dhanunga
Aur tumhare saamne hero banunga
Ya shayad aise ki coffee peete hue tumhare muh se jhaag hataunga
Ya zada filmy na rakhte hue hi soche
To SMS bhi to kar hi sakta hu tumhe
Tumhari college wali gali me bhi to mil sakti ho
Wahi pehle ki tarah chutkulon par khil sakti ho
Tum wo sab ho jo paane ki hasrat thi kabhi
Tumhare saath TV dekhte hue hi zindagi nikal jaaye to asli zindagi hai wahi
Mai fir waise hi baal savaarunga tumhare
Aur tum bhi har roz savere chaai pilaogi mujhe
Jab ek roz hum fir nashe me honge aur raat nikal jayegi
Tumhare muh se fir koi raaz, koi ajeeb si baat nikal jayegi
Mai fir tumhe arso tak chidhata rahunga
Aur aangan ki kati patang aise hi udata rahunga
Yaad karunga us roz ko jab tumse pehli baar himmat kar baat kari thi
Jab mera aasmaan kuch kam neela,
Ghaas kuch kam hari thi
Yun hi haste khelte budhaape ko paa lenge
Aur apne poton ke liye “modern dada dadi ki kahaaniyan” banaa lenge
Fir jab haspataal ke bistar par mai, mere bagal me tum hogi
Ek aakhri baar tumse mulakaat hogi
Dil to dono ka aakhri baar dhadkega
Par dhadkan antim saas tak ek hogi

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Craving expectations by a futile letter to her v2.0

Because first letter is a love letter
And it contained all lovable things about you
But this v2.0 has the mistakes of us
In the silence of words, dedicated to you

One day when I woke up
I felt I am missing her
This is not right
My mind ushered
After everything that happened
After all that took place
I just needed some time
I could do well with some space
But everywhere I go
No matter where I breathe
Just keep thinking of this stupid thought
Of you and me
Why did you have to become a part of me if you couldn’t be a part of me?
Last night when fireflies lit up my dark room
When claws of being aloof entangled me
To my inevitable doom
Depression swallowed me from the inside
When you found someone new
Left me confused with my malarkist-blabbering mind
And I was stupid to have loved you
You said you loved reading minds
Then how come you never got to read mine
You never understood who understood you better
You never cared for the one who cared for you better
And guessed the scale of my love
I kept playing nice guy when you were around
Your level of numbness shook my grounds
You came in my life like a lighting thunder
The way you electrified the birds of my desires
We would have been together like sweat and skin
Inscribed perfectly but invisible
But when I touched the vulnerabilities,you perspired
If you really really wanna know more about “ourself”?
I’ll show you the last pages of my notebooks
Sad life of my trimmer which gave me those atrocious looks(according to you)
I never used it more than twice a month though
I only asked for a chance
Is that too much to ask for?
Or are you too clairvoyant
That things were not even worth trying for?
All those ditched lectures, hangouts, movies, chocolates, what was it for?

So, if one day when you wake up
And you feel that you miss me
Don’t regret your decisions
You don’t deserve me
I tried trying
You didn’t believe me

I get scared

Scared

Yes I am

A crap load amount

This is not the first time

And this won’t be the last time

Time comes and time goes

What is the correct logic, who knows? What to do

And what not to

Which way to choose

Whether I’ll win this gamble Or I’ll loose

When your memories leave marks on My face, creating that ever lasting scar

When you’ll just run off leaving sentimental door ajar

Memories fade

Memories made

But when

I don’t see you

Like I want to

I get scared

Give me a belt

I want to whip myself today

That I was unable to tell you

What I always wanted to convey

And now I see you whirling in a pool of quarrel, shouts and insecurities Surely, some vulnerabilities

I think I might be obsessed with you Stress is no longer a stress

When I am with you

I burp my dreams and lick my fears

Confused, sometimes I break in tears

A different taste

A different shade

But when I don’t see you

Like I want to

I get scared

नेत्र नहीं होंगे

war

धरती माँ की सौगंध लिए

आ खड़े हैं आज सीमा पर

मेरे भाई, ये जंग आख़िर जंग क्यू?

राजनीतिक गोली बारी मे

हम सैनिक दफ़न क्यू?

क्या भूल गये वो दीवाली के लड्‍डू

वो इड की सेवीयाँ

जो तार के पार की थी हमने

वो रफ़ी के नगमे

वो घालिब की गज़ल

जो एक साथ माइक पर गायी थी हमने

तो फिर आज ऐसा क्या हुआ

के उन्ही हाथ मे माइक की जगह

बंदूक ताने उसी जगह पर खड़े हैं

जहाँ कभी जलेबियन भी बनाई थी हमने

भोर की पहली किरण जब तेरे चेहरे

को स्पर्श करके इन ज़ख़्मो को उजागर करेगी

तो क्या चेहरा दिखाउंगा खुद को

तेरे उस परिवार को

जिसे जंग का सही मतलब तक नही तूने बताया

जब तेरी छोटी बेहेन मोटरसाइकल की आवाज़ सुनके

दौड़ी दौड़ी आँगन में आएगी

एक सन्नाटे सी दुनिया में रो जाएगी

उन वसीहत के काग़ज़ों का क्या

जो तेरी माँ ने तेरे नाम किए थे

और सबसे उपर,

उस खुदा का क्या

जो क़यामत की रोज़ मुझसे पूछेगा

की ऐसी क्या बुलंदी पा ली तूने

ये खुश आनंदित परिवार उजाड़ कर

शायद मैं किसी को ये चेहरा नही दिखा पाऊंगा

इसलिए नहीं की मेरे पास जवाब नहीं होंगे

पर शायद इसलिए

की कल देखने के लिए,

ये मेरे भी नेत्रा नहीं होंगे

Thoughts of a Rasgulla

maxresdefault.jpgOn this auspicious day of Raksha Bandhan

I would happily like to get inside your stomach

And create a sensation of joy

With my syrupy balls, you’ll cheer “Oh, Boy!”

When this semolina goes inside you, it will be nothing but bliss

For I am a Bengali sweet and we are a specialty

Don’t you even think about going with fucking Jalebi!

That bitch doesn’t exist without Rabdi

We should have our own personality

She is more expensive than me

And less tasty than me

Excuse me, ma’am, don’t look at that Jalebi!

And of course, it is hot outside, eat me eat me I am cool

Hey, Kiddo, stop your laddoo-drool

Pick up a piece of laddoo and he’ll break

Just like your girlfriend gave you heartbreak, last week

Sometimes joining diverse stuff together doesn’t do you good

Why are you peopling going by spoiling my mood?

Picking up all the sweets around me

But me
I mean, I know I get stale after a day but hey!

You can eat me right out of the fridge at 2 AM in the night

When you feel lonely and nothing is bright

Depression, quarrels, fights. Just give it a break

And remember there is something that will always love you

  1. Your family
  2. Our species

Buy a kilo of me for god’s sake

Uncle, no! Not that cake!

Long Lost Luminosity

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Never thought it’d be this way

Ways of “us” now diverge

I kept my word

But you cheated me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

What happened to that promise?

Promise to be with each other

I stood by you

And you stranded me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

I always loved you like hell

Even hell won’t take you now

But I hope you don’t suffer

Even though you wrecked me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

All I want is reason

Reason why you went so far

I wanted you; because I loved you

Did you ever love me?

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

You! My Love

You! My Love