I get scared

Scared

Yes I am

A crap load amount

This is not the first time

And this won’t be the last time

Time comes and time goes

What is the correct logic, who knows? What to do

And what not to

Which way to choose

Whether I’ll win this gamble Or I’ll loose

When your memories leave marks on My face, creating that ever lasting scar

When you’ll just run off leaving sentimental door ajar

Memories fade

Memories made

But when

I don’t see you

Like I want to

I get scared

Give me a belt

I want to whip myself today

That I was unable to tell you

What I always wanted to convey

And now I see you whirling in a pool of quarrel, shouts and insecurities Surely, some vulnerabilities

I think I might be obsessed with you Stress is no longer a stress

When I am with you

I burp my dreams and lick my fears

Confused, sometimes I break in tears

A different taste

A different shade

But when I don’t see you

Like I want to

I get scared

नेत्र नहीं होंगे

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धरती माँ की सौगंध लिए

आ खड़े हैं आज सीमा पर

मेरे भाई, ये जंग आख़िर जंग क्यू?

राजनीतिक गोली बारी मे

हम सैनिक दफ़न क्यू?

क्या भूल गये वो दीवाली के लड्‍डू

वो इड की सेवीयाँ

जो तार के पार की थी हमने

वो रफ़ी के नगमे

वो घालिब की गज़ल

जो एक साथ माइक पर गायी थी हमने

तो फिर आज ऐसा क्या हुआ

के उन्ही हाथ मे माइक की जगह

बंदूक ताने उसी जगह पर खड़े हैं

जहाँ कभी जलेबियन भी बनाई थी हमने

भोर की पहली किरण जब तेरे चेहरे

को स्पर्श करके इन ज़ख़्मो को उजागर करेगी

तो क्या चेहरा दिखाउंगा खुद को

तेरे उस परिवार को

जिसे जंग का सही मतलब तक नही तूने बताया

जब तेरी छोटी बेहेन मोटरसाइकल की आवाज़ सुनके

दौड़ी दौड़ी आँगन में आएगी

एक सन्नाटे सी दुनिया में रो जाएगी

उन वसीहत के काग़ज़ों का क्या

जो तेरी माँ ने तेरे नाम किए थे

और सबसे उपर,

उस खुदा का क्या

जो क़यामत की रोज़ मुझसे पूछेगा

की ऐसी क्या बुलंदी पा ली तूने

ये खुश आनंदित परिवार उजाड़ कर

शायद मैं किसी को ये चेहरा नही दिखा पाऊंगा

इसलिए नहीं की मेरे पास जवाब नहीं होंगे

पर शायद इसलिए

की कल देखने के लिए,

ये मेरे भी नेत्रा नहीं होंगे

Thoughts of a Rasgulla

maxresdefault.jpgOn this auspicious day of Raksha Bandhan

I would happily like to get inside your stomach

And create a sensation of joy

With my syrupy balls, you’ll cheer “Oh, Boy!”

When this semolina goes inside you, it will be nothing but bliss

For I am a Bengali sweet and we are a specialty

Don’t you even think about going with fucking Jalebi!

That bitch doesn’t exist without Rabdi

We should have our own personality

She is more expensive than me

And less tasty than me

Excuse me, ma’am, don’t look at that Jalebi!

And of course, it is hot outside, eat me eat me I am cool

Hey, Kiddo, stop your laddoo-drool

Pick up a piece of laddoo and he’ll break

Just like your girlfriend gave you heartbreak, last week

Sometimes joining diverse stuff together doesn’t do you good

Why are you peopling going by spoiling my mood?

Picking up all the sweets around me

But me
I mean, I know I get stale after a day but hey!

You can eat me right out of the fridge at 2 AM in the night

When you feel lonely and nothing is bright

Depression, quarrels, fights. Just give it a break

And remember there is something that will always love you

  1. Your family
  2. Our species

Buy a kilo of me for god’s sake

Uncle, no! Not that cake!

Long Lost Luminosity

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Never thought it’d be this way

Ways of “us” now diverge

I kept my word

But you cheated me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

What happened to that promise?

Promise to be with each other

I stood by you

And you stranded me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

I always loved you like hell

Even hell won’t take you now

But I hope you don’t suffer

Even though you wrecked me

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

All I want is reason

Reason why you went so far

I wanted you; because I loved you

Did you ever love me?

When you left me

Alone under the rain

Insufferable pain!

Long Lost Luminosity

You! My Love

Angst-Anguished Atrocity

You! My Love

You! My Love

You! My Love

Last thought of a dead king

A right and good king got betrayed by his own men just for the sake of some money. And now his soul wanders looking at the world, his kingdom, just after he got killed with treachery.

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Once this kingdom was mine

“His might! The one just and right!”

They used to yell,

now my body lies amputated and pale

a man stands on my top with ale.

Brisking his mustache he said a few things,

“Your king is dead. I am your new king.”

I saw my own men at his abide

none of them took a fight,

and stood my side;

when he bolted up on me with a horde,

no one was beside me on my board.

For I felt too betrayed

and here lies the old king flayed.

Once, I conquered this country,

“The people no more shall stay hungry.”

I killed the king, who was vicious and cruel

and hence, began my rule.

But I discovered your morals stand

upon pillars of salt and sand.

Avarice can make righteousness flee

and my very own people turned on me.

You people have no dignity,

buried in clinks of pence lies your loyalty.

Behold, the new king’s rule,

I hope he is vicious and cruel.

For, you people don’t deserve just

And whipping you all is a must!